Friday, July 16, 2010

~am i homesick??~

kuberlari ke hutan kemudian teriakku,
kuberlari ke pantai kemudian menyanyiku,
sepi..sepi dan sendiri ak benci....

ak bosan tak terkata tak terjangka la weh duk umah jeeeee.....
perasaan 2 tibe2 je dtg dlm hati ak..
...S.U.N.Y.I...S.E.P.I...
kalo time2 cenggini cm weekend xdek org kt umah, mula la rasa sunyi je..
honestly ak ngku yg ak sgt2 rndu suasana umah ak kt kolej time sem 3 n 4 dlu..
rndu kt rumate n housemate yg kepoh2 tu...
yg giler2 tu okey...
skng suasana da len..
housemate baru...
deorng msg2 kt blik je..kua..blik kg..n wt keje sndri..
myb msh trlalu awl kot nk borak lebih2...
lame2 nnti ok la kot...

siyes weh ak xbleh la sunyi2 kt umh sorng2..
cm nk meroyan je rase..
cm nk hantuk2 je pale kt dinding ni haa...
mmber de je ajak lepak2 umah deorg,
tp ak jnis suka duk umah je..lepak kt blik sndri..
lgpn xkan la nk duk umah deorng je an duaplohempat jam...

kalo da rasa sesgt sunyi, mula la tingat kt umi...
amek enset ps tu koll umi..
pas 2 ngadu2 bosan duk umah sensorng..
ps 2 mula la ckp pn tersedu sedu...
air mata pn mleleh leleh..
rase cm nk bungkus je kain baju then flying without wings balik kg skng jugak...
skng jugak okey!!
waaaaa....sedih..sob3x...
i miss my mom so much okey!!

adakah ak....
HOMESICK???
mne x ny, 2 bulan smester break kt umah je..umi ak ada dpan mata..
ak an, kalo cite psl bnda2 touching2 kt umi, cpt je air mata ni nk kua..
mnyampah tau..
korng jgn judge ak ank mnja okey..
ak bkn ny jnis ank mnja yg bekepit ng umi ak duaplohempatjam...
aceli ak jnis nk umi ak ada dpan mata pale ak je...2 je...

ble cenggini, mula la rasa cm nk stdy je..
tp skng ni an sem bru mula..xtau nk stdy pe ag..
weekend ak jd sgt bosan okey...
pas tu hari biasa 2 okey la coz ada class...
jmpa mmber2 ilang sket rasa bosan tu..
tp ble da blik umah smula...naaa...bosan lg..
memalam je kul 10pm da tdo coz xtau nk wat pe..
kul 5am da bngon..online..then bosan...

walaweh..
ble la rasa bosan ni nk ilang??
skng ni hobi baru ak, tngok calendar....kira2 hari..
congak2 hari ble la nk blik kg..

hmm, ak try pkir +ve la ble ak dh cenggini an..
kalo nk isi masa terluang xtau nk wat pe nk2 ag time mlm2,
ak makin rajin baca quran..
bkn nk mnunjuk atau pe..tp nk tenang kan hati..
kdg2 ble ng mmber je kite bleh gelak ketawa..
tp dlm hati xde siapa yg tau rhsia yg tersmpan bukan??



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